Angelversaries

Is that a real word? Well for those of us who know what it is yes. April 2nd was six years since my beautiful boy gained his wings and flew home. I miss him more than words can explain. I know one day I will be with him again and be the mother I should have been here on earth. However that doesn't completely help the here and now. I do my best to carry on for my other boys. They lift me up so much. They make it worth it. I can't imagaine my life without them.

((hugs))
Raye

Happy 6th Heavenly Birthday

Ahhh. The 24th has arrived. I must say I am actually happy today. I am not jumping around but I am happy. Even though I tear up as I sit here and type this post. I have started to be able to celebrate this day for what it is. Ryan's Birthday. Not the day he died. That is a huge difference to me. Hopefully that is a big difference to most people. Am I sad of course. I wish he was here to celebrate with but I will still celebrate. We will head off to our family dinner and be happy! Tonight when we get home I will look into the stars and smile. I smile with the firm belief he is smiling back at me. He will blow his candles out on his cake to give me those stars. What a great present to me.

Lots of love,
Raye

March for Babies - 2010

Despite the rain we walked. March for Babies is one way we honor Ryan. We walk so that others won't know the pain we have known.

The Harrison Crew

Garden of Hope

Why I walk

5 Years

Five years ago my world changed dramatically. My son Ryan was born 6 weeks early with multiple birth defects. We stressed over what life would be with a disabled child but never in a million years thought it would end the way it did. During heart surgery while on bypass his blood pressure dropped and his brain was damaged. My son did not come out of that OR. Our family was able to tell him goodbye which was a blessing. As I held him in my arms my angel on earth became my angel in heaven. My heart broke in ways I never thought it could. I hope this blog will help other parents who are on their own journey.
((hugs)),
Rachel

My Angel