Angelversaries

Is that a real word? Well for those of us who know what it is yes. April 2nd was six years since my beautiful boy gained his wings and flew home. I miss him more than words can explain. I know one day I will be with him again and be the mother I should have been here on earth. However that doesn't completely help the here and now. I do my best to carry on for my other boys. They lift me up so much. They make it worth it. I can't imagaine my life without them.

((hugs))
Raye

Happy 6th Heavenly Birthday

Ahhh. The 24th has arrived. I must say I am actually happy today. I am not jumping around but I am happy. Even though I tear up as I sit here and type this post. I have started to be able to celebrate this day for what it is. Ryan's Birthday. Not the day he died. That is a huge difference to me. Hopefully that is a big difference to most people. Am I sad of course. I wish he was here to celebrate with but I will still celebrate. We will head off to our family dinner and be happy! Tonight when we get home I will look into the stars and smile. I smile with the firm belief he is smiling back at me. He will blow his candles out on his cake to give me those stars. What a great present to me.

Lots of love,
Raye